My forever lover

Before I even try to decipher what I truly feel, I want to let you know that you deserve so much better.

To my forever lover, my eyes are starting to open, and I’m constantly receiving new opportunities. My goals have changed since then. It all aligns with who I am as a person. Though you knew me better than most, and as I you… I feel like we never really knew each other, or at least knew crucial points of our life. 

Though I have a habit of showing what I want people to see of me, I let a lot of that go with you. Even with that being said, my darkest points weren’t so apparent until after our separation. And it’s really just a lot to it.

One of the biggest things being our beliefs, I feel like our beliefs are so different.. Like..  that one conversation we had Wayback when.. I should’ve considered it heavily. But in our separation period I realized how firmly I stand in what I believe in, and I 100% know it does not align with yours. And it’s not even just that!! it’s some of my behaviors, & the way that I think & even my actions. There are so many things about me that I know aren’t  suited for you. No matter how many times you say you will accept it. I know you will not. I’m also just headed in the complete opposite direction in life.

I believe that maybe in a different time or maybe in a different course of life we will be able to cross path’s/walk the same path/ or even just walking, side-by-side to different destinations but I feel like my destination is set and I don’t feel like there’s anyway you will be able to make it to this destination.

I feel bad, because I have to be vague because I’d rather save why, and what goals I’m aiming for- for a live interaction between us.

Idk

I’m sorry 

You have always been my soulmate and you’ll always be my best friend.. I just feel like I can’t be a part of your life in the way that I have been before. I can’t make any promises because I am in a new stage of my life that didn’t align with the promises I had made then. I’m the same just adamant about what I want.

but I want you to know that you are my first true love and I love you unlike anyone ever. You are the ultimate perfection in my eyes, and I would never change anything about you. You showed me what it meant to be loved and how it felt to have the home/ family I longed for because you are my home, family, and love.

 I just feel like this all stands on our morals, our goals and our desires. 

I’m not leaving your life and I’m always here for you just in a different way from now on.

I’m sorry, my mr.coco 

I’m still your big fan and I’ll always root for you. 

Im here,

I love you.

I miss you.

Eternally.