Another sleepless night

The person who use to make me fall asleep at night, is now the reason I can't sleep. Endless thoughts run through my head, the same thoughts I had while we were together. Only this time they're worse. In the end I know it's for the best, but I only stay awake to think of the suffering; The suffering i felt comfortable in. The suffering that for some reason made me feel loved, and made me feel like enough. I lie awake wondering how much wrong he has admitted to, in comparison to what he has spread about me. Who has he told? Where's my justice? Why can I never be the person with pain? I blocked him on everything, and I'm hoping it helps. I pray this time I don't give in to selfish temptation to make sure he's alive. I hope this time I can keep myself from seeing his face, making me fall in love all over again. I hope that this time I can forget his face. Maybe then I'll relate a little bit more to 'remember you' the song from adventure time.