Dear Dairy, Dark cold where the light?

I was never much for knowing we all was Part the darkness with in us at some point in are  lifes In tell I saw it happen to my own my mother. I never new how lonely she truely felt she was all I had My dad was never around he worked And worked. Life never was life the Good old days when it was just 3 of us all the time. That was back in two 2004 When I was 5 We always went to the lake had picnics. Famiy get together or my dad work parties. Well I wouldnt count that as the famliy being togther now My dad is all about work as said befor so he always have my mom on her tose try make her be his dream wife . My father wanted the house wife life for my mother. Even he didnt see it was killing her in side at the. Why would he spand late nights at the office  With his Mistress without a care in the world how it would hurt are family in the end well should I say what family even left of love and happienss. As I said befor nothing I rember it. Now days.

chapter 1.

Dear Dairy, May 6. 2013.

Mom and dad are getting in to it again this time mom upset dad didnt come home for dinner they are yelling about mom saying he lies. About working late. I don't ever know if it will be the right time to tell mom about the boy at school who made me falling love with me just break my heart more then once . All it seem to ever be is him coming back to break me more each time for what his on game. i just want it to go back how things was when I first fell for him he use to be so sweet he did anything to see me smile now just fake one beacause I am so scared he will beat me or worse use me again for xxx if dont do what want he dose just that . Some I have have put on smiles just so he thinks I am happy giving him his way no matter what it is.  Some days I just wish mom was never so sad I see she so strong she put on more smiles then I ever seen for my dad when ask. She should be in movies :) If mom was not like this maybe I could tell her everything but I dont think she would even understand because she deals with My dad crap so much. That she only ever show she loves me is when I am sick or for an few hour after school . Be for she try being the good wife my dad want uhhh. 

Phone: Rings 

Hello???

Danny:

You Up Baby???

Allly: Yes

Danny: Ummmm can I come over ???

Ally Idk Dont think its a good idea Mom And Dad Are up fighting again.

Danny: NOT WHAT YOU SHOULD OF SAID NOW i AM MAD I JUST WANTED SEE I HAVE SOMETHING FOR  FOUR FUCK SAKE bITCH YOU KNOW TO TALK ME RIGHT AND THIS NOT IT NO GUY EVER GOING LOVE YOU BUT ME. NO ONE GIVES A FUCK ABOUT YOU.YOU KNOW BETTER i DONT CARE IF THEY IS Up. I am sorry I should not yell at you I am sorry baby I should not take my anger out you. They think your A sleep right???

Ally: say with tears rolling down her face. I know I am sorry Yes Yes They do

Danny: Ok look out your window

Ally: Go to window see Danny/ boyfriend standing there she whipes her tears away fast. with A fake smile. She had No choice but to let him come up.