I’m actually gonna kms

I literally cannot stand not being able to see my girlfriend. We don’t go to the same school, so that’s a major negative. And we can’t see each other that often either because of her parents. And it really sucks because I just want to see my pretty girl. Calling everyday and sleeping on call every night doesn’t take away from the fact that she’s not here with me in the physical. I’ve literally CRIED because I haven’t been able to see her. I’m literally crying rn typing this. It’s so bad. I just want to see her, hold her hand, kiss her face. I just want to stand next to her. I love her so much. And I miss her even more. I’m holding onto hope rn, but if her parents say we can’t see each other I’ll actually kms. Like I’m being so deadass. I can’t stand this AT ALL. I can’t focus anymore without going deep into thought on how it’s almost been 2 months since we’ve seen each other last. And I hate it. And I don’t get it either. I hate religions sometimes. But that’s like not it at all either. There’s too much going on for me to just simply explain WHY I’m so upset. I hate seeing couples at school too, because I just want that to be me and her. It’s making me go insane. Like I’m literally SOBBING and I feel so silly because of that. It’s not like she’s going to war or she’s dying, I just miss her. I can’t even listen to her playlist she made me or the one I made her without wanting to cry. I’ve never cried this much in such little time over one thing. I miss her sm I’m gonna go INSANE. Okay I’m done, for now. Staying strong