Update??? 23/05/2023

Hello dearies. It's been a while! Not much has happened. Me and my parents have bought tickets to the Till Lindemann concert, Aesthetic Perfection is also supporting which is a bonus for me. Yesterday was World Goth Day, so happy late WGD for here lol. I posted a video on my Instagram to "celebrate" yesterday (I'd appreciate it if you'd check it out, haha). I've still not got a job because I live in a crap area, there's nothing going around here, and everything that I've applied for (I've been applying for almost a year now!) I've been rejected for before I even had the chance for an interview. It sucks, applying for jobs is a very disheartening process. 

I've been considering going back to therapy, but I don't think I want to do CBT again, it only provided me with short term relief. I don't know what's up with me. It feels like, since finishing therapy in the early October, I think I've slowly been regressing. I feel as though it may have slowly gotten worse as I feel like I'm supposed to be okay now. 

On a lighter note, I've applied for a fashion course at Kings Lynn College. I'm praying that I get in. I see no reason why I can't get in because I can sew by hand and with a sewing machine, I have made three skirts (albeit something is wrong with the first and third one), several tote bags and a drawstring pouch. I really want to get in. I know this course is meant for people who've just finished secondary school (15/16 year olds) but I'm hoping I can get in, although I'll have to pay, which sucks. I'm hoping that they can maybe lower the financial cost of the course or at least arrange some transportation for me (as the public bus I think takes three hours to get there and on train is very expensive but gets me there in about an hour). 

I think that is all the major things that I have to say.