I try to be the best version of myself,
I credit you for giving me that source of happiness when you walk into the room
but if I open myself up to you, you'll just see I'm nothing but a broken soul
a lost soul looking for validation, but I know I am no good to love,
I don't wanna leave, but my brain will just shut you out of my existence,
I don't think I'll ever be capable of love, no matter how hard I try to love myself
but you are so hopeful, when I make eye contact with you all I see is light,
I see pure intentions that I wish I could give my time to,
but I can't even give myself that time.
I feel like I'm sinking so far in this whirlpool, I just want to drown.
with no one in sight, I would rather sink in this sadness then give you my time of day