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i want to be cute ! but i don't think petal finds my obsessiveness cute , so i hide it for the most part . she wants me to open to to her more but i'm terrified that i'll go too far and she won't like me anymore . the whole situation with apple really opened my eyes to how stressful people like me can be , i saw my thought process reflected a lot in apples messages to her . i agree that she was being over the top but seeing my friends say that she's attention seeking and ' back on her bullshit ' made me go eek !!! inside . and as always i ended up being a little mean as well . i have a tendency to just follow what my friends are doing , i always regret it . i don't think they're completely being rude towards apple because again apple went way too far , like telling petal that she's being mean to her a bunch of times and stuff and petal is very nice