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tbh it is my fault. i went into this with low expectations of myself n it just is reflecting that now. im sitting on my break rn just crying cus i feel like im so bad at this. to be honest i want to be normal like everybody else and i want to understand things faster . but i cant . i just have to live with it. poor me. i just want to cry and cry and cry and cry forever. i dont even want to eat and im so hungry. i dont want to drink and my throat hurts. all i wanna do is punish myself anymore. im struggling so much tbh n i dont know what to do. im overreacting. im hormonal. i suck at this. other people know i suck at this. people are so perplexed by my literal retardation that i cant even give myself the benefit of the doubt . j want to be alone and spoil forever idk whats wromg with me
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FRIDAY
why is my confidence so low? i dont understand tobe honest. idk what shattered me when i was younger but its been this eay forever now. idk true confidence idk how!
plwase help me ))))8
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n yknow irs not even my confidence in how i look. i mean sure but thwts a whole nother story. its just confidence in general. my ability to think of myself highly in any regard. my ability to feel like i can do things without messing it up. my ability to believe that anyone wants anything to do with me or what i have to say or create . its not normal
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hopefully this cold water stops the swelling of my eyes so i can just pass as normal again i dont need anyone askinf why im crying or if im ok
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FRIDAY
i wont even do anything that drastically wrong but i just feel like a fuckinf idiot all the time. its really grating on me
idk
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im so slow and it sucks. i never want to do any of this ever again. i want people to understand and be understanding but ill never get thatluxury
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i need a therapist and i want to bite my tongue
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i just need a reset . i hope i cry all that i can rn cus my break is not going to last forever and i cant spontaneously break down while doinf shit
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