Free time

I'm having a problem with my free time, in that I am so scared I'm going to waste it. I have a day off today, there's nothing I gotta do. So I try to do all the things and then when it doesn't feel or go as well as I imagined I quickly switch to another thing. I've started doing so many things today, some for just a few minutes before giving up. At one point I was watching something with sound off while organizing music while sewing a patch on my jacket while waiting for laundry. And then it just gets stressful even though I have free today. I don't know how to relax.

 Possibly cause I would spend days of doing nothing as a kid and my parents didn't like that, so now I feel like I have to spend my time well instead of relaxing. Too many complaints about not doing something useful. So now I feel ashamed at the end of the day if I can't think of anything useful I did that day.