hi guise i am a bit sad right now and wanted to pop in and talk about some real shit. being sober is hawd :-( i went to a party tonight and i was having so much fun the whole time feeling carefree not caring or noticing that i was likely the only sober one. i danced around a lot in my friends backyard and felt the wind picking me up and there were a lot of moments of true “dancing like nobodys watching”. and then u get that random moment that reminds u how sort of outlandish ur presence is and violently jerks u back to reality. everyone was playing the flip cup drinking game and when i got asked to play my friend right after was like “oh sorry, i totally forgot” and skipped over me and then someone asked me to film the game while they played since i wasnt playing. which just felt like a bit of a jab to me, even though it was completely innocent, for me it felt like “oh you cant play well make yourself useful then” i didnt even film it i just sat there staring blankly for like 15 minutes and then decided to get my ass home. im glad i just took myself out of the situation instead of dragging it out bc that’s something ive wanted to get better at. i think i wish they would’ve offered me to drink water or sprite or something out of the cup instead of alcohol so i could’ve just participated if i wanted to. i should probably just speak up for myself in those situations though. it is just hard feeling at all out of place in environments i used to feel so comfortable in. on a positive note ive been spending time in nature af, went to the beach all day yesterday and visited a waterfall today. biked around hamilton to get to the waterfall and it was stunning more hamilton vibes this summer PLEASE! Love u girls
mindful may day ???? sober sads
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youtubegirl
really proud of u for getting urself outta there. u are so strong its crazy to me!!! i would like to go to hamilton next week? :)
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Love u pookie and would love to go to hammy hehehe ill text u
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Nyx☆
You've got to speak up for yourself in these situations. Uncomfortable as it is, positive change usually only starts with us saying something.
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Nyx☆
Being sober is hard but it will only get better! Hang in there
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