Getting older

I'm graduating from high school next year and honestly, I've been having this ongoing crisis about like not seeing my friends anymore after graduation, and the house I have been living in will be a place I visit during my break. I am adulting and getting older and I'm happy with it because it brings me closer to the point in life where I get to be on my own. 

I can't believe these people who I have been with throughout my life will just not be there anymore. The people I see every day at school, the people I laugh with, do assignments with, all that shit. 

We're gonna graduate and that's it. I will talk about my current friends as "my high school friend" and that is so crazy to me. I love these people with all my heart, they're my best friends and I wouldn't trade them for anything at all. They've seen the best of me and the worst of me and I love them. I don't know how I'm gonna handle having to say goodbye later.

I do get that it's sort of pointless to keep worrying about this because then I won't be able to enjoy things as much and I don't really think about it when I am alone. 

In 2 months I'll be in my senior year, in 12 months I will no longer be in high school, in 14 months I'll be off at university in a foreign country.  

I hope I make the most of my last 12 months still in high school. I hope all that's left are from memories I will look back on and smile at in the future.