bpd shiiist

oh how i wish i coudl say smth along the lines of "omg i totally forgot i have bpd". i never do. it's awful. it's present everywhere. in my way of thinking, relationships obv, liking things, interests😭 i don't get a second left alone with my thoughts BCS my thoughts are ill. they're ill. my bpd is a way of life sadly. i didn't get to choose. fckn quetiapine is not working😭