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omg i keep forgetting i have tbis now. idk nothing muxh has been going on tbh mainly juzt been working a whole lot. ive been tired a lot but i feel like... fufilled in a way. like im working on it slowly but surely and, knoxk on wood, i havent really been having any runins qith my mom. so working full time has been a good thinf as much as its tasking. vut yeah... i have a kink in my neck and i need to get gas . im considering just doing bulletins instead of blogs bcs even tho i like having a diary to look back on the log system for blogs and stuff is a little weird.. like whenever you go to look at blogs its the most controversial shit first thing to make you mad i guess? and i just dont like how strange the system is cus you have to like.. dig through to find shit in certain categories or whqtever but whatever who cares. what else..i got like a short spurted tamagotchi addiction. we also got a new pool which is sick and im excited for cus im super excited for summer.... ⛱️ i bought some pool toys. omfg and mothers day is coming up and my mom still hasnt sent me this gazebo shes dying to have me get for her 🤦🤦 its just a bit of a mess rn! plus i was told that were throwing.a bbq or something on the day of or the weekend of july 4th which i am not looking forward to. i have a feeling my autism is going to flip but at least like worst case scenario i can retreat to my bedroom and lock the door (itll already be locked during the party so noone goes in it) but i was surprised to be told that my mom is planning an actual bbq. its just weird cus we dont talk to my moms side of the family anymore so i fuess its just gonna be 🍔's side and people from her job. she said i should invite people from my job but i genuinely dont really want to bcs that means im going to have to like. entertain them. because theyre probably not going to know other people there at all . which i dojt wanna have to do when i already know im gonna be overstimulated as is. but yeah let me get out of here... god its been such long days. but day by day