Been a few months (reupload w/ fixed grammar)

The grammar was buggin' me, sorry.

I've noticed recently that I have started to treat my friends the way I treat myself. (I.E. like shit)  I know that its a result of, ya know, treating myself like shit

As Paulo Coelho said, "How people treat other people is a direct reflection of how they feel about themselves." 

It feels like this is a spiral I can't get out of.

1. I feel like a shitty person.

2. I treat people like shit to make them realize I'm a shitty person.

3. Back to step one.

This ain't even conscious, which is the worst part.

I can't just be like, "Well lets treat people better"

Cause I don't remember how...

Another thing I've noticed is I'm a lot angrier than usual.

My usual response of hitting shit ain't helping no more.

I get so mad at basic shit that I can feel myself tense up or worse.

Sometimes I get so mad I feel like I'm going to throw up.

Other than hitting shit and working out, I have no outlet for this.

Especially one I can use consistently, so it just builds, and I lash out

Back to step one

There's probably more shit rn I'm forgetting, but idc rn.

I'm trying to get this off my chest before I try and vomit again.

My mouth tastes like shit.