Bored/ Vent

Ive been really bored recently. Even when Im doing thingz that r fun or r suppose 2 make u happy I just dont feel that way. I feel nothing or just sadness and derealization. Its constant and I h8 it so much. I just want 2 be normal and have a normal life like every1 else, but no.

My sleep meds are working finally which is gud though, but my Vraylar isnt really too much. The Propranolol is just a pill at this point it has stopped working 4 panic attacks. I need to call my med doctor and c if I can change things around so I dont feel so shit all the time.

Nothing feelz real or normal anymore and I wish I didnt feel like this all the fucking time. I cant keep living like this I just want to be normal and happy