born to early for love born to late to care

how is it fair 

when i was born and my siblings were in their teens and early 20s no one wanted anything to do with me and now 20 years later my step brother has his kids and suddenly toys are allowed in the living room, pictures can be on the fridge, shitty art is put up on display, and everyone wants to interact and provide a safe space for them. what about my safe space? what about when you let random people use my bed when i was at my dads what about the only time we would socialize being me sitting in the corner of your room while you rant or clean or get dressed for the club what about when i wanted to play on the computer together but you were always to busy why do these kids get the older sister that i deserved why do you now care about what they look at on the internet why do you now make sure they aren't scarred why didn't you care about my safety 

god every day i'm reminded that no one wanted the burden of my well being

small and selfish rant 

toodles4now