locked in

every corner of this place is dark, in fact I haven't seen light in years

the haunting thoughts can't be pushed back and suppressed anymore, there's no more good to counter it

every opening has been shut, all the vents have been plugged and all the doors have been locked. Again, this place is flooding.

this time, I don't bother to stop it. I don't try to prevent this small, dark enclosure from becoming an endless, raging ocean.

I don't try to stop myself from drowning, I dive right into the disaster. I let it consume me.

because this time will be the last time I drown.

after the crashing waves and the beautiful mess will come a deafening silence. A neverending void. Nothingness.