I'm so frustrated

I'm so tired of having to do research when it should be a doctor doing this, and not the patient.

Scouring journals and information, message boards to find what works and what doesn't. What could possibly be causing me all this fucking pain all the time..

There may be a possibility of things working in my favour, but I'm so tired of the late nights of no sleep and being overwhelmed by pain.

It's frustrating.