Self Improvement.

I find myself daydreaming all the time about my perfect life and how much i wish I could just skip from now until the point where i reach it. The process of making myself better and making my life more enjoyable is really difficult, i feel like something out of my control has to change before i myself can start o take action. That’s an incredibly lazy way of thinking about it and i know that its unreasonable, i do have to be the person to make these steps throughout the entire process. But i think the main thing holding me back is my parents. I’m now 20 years old and I’ve spent the last 7ish months living alone and growing as a person and I want so badly to keep moving forward and progressing in my life. I’m in school working towards a degree, in a relationship that i can easily see continuing far into my future, ive finally formed a fulfilling social life, i love where i live. I want to keep developing this and get more into spirituality, be more creative, work on treating my mental health issues, but i feel like in the next few weeks when i move back home for the summer im just gonna hit a wall. Every time i go home, whether its for a day or a whole week, i just cant help but feel horrible. I hate my home town, my job is below-enjoyable, and my parents just suck every but of life out of me. I feel so on edge and anxious all the time when im at home. It’s really scary to think about leaving the life ive started building for myself to go back to a lifestyle that makes me feel so suffocated and horrible.