Going out. 4/7/23

We haven't spoken all day, and my mind is on haywire. He hasn't texted me or anything but I know he's awake and he doesn't work today. I've been waiting all day for a response, I feel like he doesn't love he and I'm going insane in his messages begging for a response or some sort of love. I think he's sleeping now. I feel like I'm not his treasure anymore, and he doesn't love me anymore. I don't know.

I'd write more, but I can't. I need to get ready, me and my dad are going to a place (can't give too much info) for clam chowder. They do this yearly, I've never had clam chowder and I'm bored. I've been in bed all day so I may as well go out. I'm hoping he responds. I need something. I need to feel special again because he hasn't treated me as such in so long.