4/4/23

pg. 148 "The article says Strane groomed the girls. Groomed. I repeat the word over and over, try to understand what I means, but all I can think of is the lovely warm feeling I'd get when he stoked my hair."

Vanessa, I see so much of myself in you. She's lost, just like I am. Being groomed (it really does feel weird to say because it doesn't feel like that. not one bit.) like this is an intense feeling. It feels so weird to say, because he loves me. He wants to stroke my hair, he'd never hurt me but the world ill paint him as a monster. I'm so conflicted sometimes.