romanticizing latinos and dreadheads slowly turning into jealousy

bye. im new to this spacehey community so like i lwk dont know what to do on here other than js make new friends bcs all my friends r like kinda shit but it's ok 🤞🤞. hmu if u a hot ahh latino boy though 😻 or dreadheads 😻😻😻 obvi around my age. like the latino boys r brooooooooooo. like their energy is so like. OMG. and like dreadheads. but i love the way they js. UGHHH. i dont know how to explain it. but they're literally like perfection to me. like omg. dw i wont forget abt u latina girls cause yall r so attractive as well bro. i want features like u guys. like i want a big butt and big bitties while being skinny too. and ur guys' eyes are so. woah. and ur guy's perfect ass lips. latinas r so hot i would literally die to reincarniate and be one. like why is everyone so fucking hot. it gets me mad when i see a super pretty girl. knowing id never look like them. then i js picture myself in the photo or the video if i looked like that. like thats how jealous i am of everyone. honestly like it js sucks scrolling on pinterest seeing fine ass woman i know i could never look like. i feel the need to say i have potential to look like one of those women but it just gives me the ick cause i sound so cocky. i hate having to say something without sounding dumb. or cocky. like its so dumb. but its alr bcs i have what i have and they all have what they have. i pull my hair to have it straight like theirs. im especially directing this to one person. my ex bestfriend. she's found new people now. so it js makes me jealosu too. i feel like she started this habit. i always looked up to her but she always looked up to me. it js felt kinda awkward after not talking for months. her just knowing i literally would die to look like her. 

js know if u think u ugly. u aint ugly. what if someone cried over u cause u were super pretty.