a letter to the person i loved.

to me, you are the perfect person. i know you aren't. you put me through hell to push me away because you didn't actually love me. no matter how much you tried to push me away you always ended up with me and i'm sorry that you had to experience that. as sorry as i am, i'm sorry i let you hurt me. i'm sorry i believed you when you said it was just me. i'm sorry i loved you as much as i did. i know that love scares you. i know when you're cold even if you are alone and at home. i know you so well that it freaks you out. you deserve someone who is going to put in the same energy you give them. if i would have done the same we would have been over before we started. even though i hate you, i'm waiting for a realization from you. i'm waiting for you to realize that even if you have someone new to use, like you did me, you will never find someone who understands and cares as much as i did. you wont ever see this but that's okay because i will never forgive you. if you come crawling back i will make sure you are just another pair of shoes. you will always just be another lesson, another stuffed animal, another kiss, and nothing else.