relationship turbulence

feelings retract like the landing gear

my luggage still smells of your perfume 

i breathe in deeply to take in all this air

knowing the plane will smell of stale desperation

i try to calm and release my care 

but you leaving made me scared

the sick taste of sharing recycled air

sit next to the window for my last view

i’ll never see your town or smell that perfume

shadows of planes upon the sandy dunes

my lungs inflate as we start to take flight

thick glass i feel sick to my core

the city lights feel like your eyes

yellows and greens still shining bright

my lungs deflating as the coast disappears

the cloudy weather and waves make me think

is this how things are supposed to be

did you love me or not even care

 these people breathing this recycled air

the air tastes of broken hopes and dreams

the lady next to me asks if im alright

how do i tell her why i’m on this flight

i wished we were two different people down there

still in love with each other dear

i wouldn’t be all the way up here 

we could just stand out on the pier 

and just stare

these false memories why should i care

i take in a deep breath of this recycled air

i wished things were different