writepril day 3 real

i can feel life gearing towards spending more time in nature and i am so EXCITED every day writing out my plans for the spring and summer. everything feels easier when i can go outside and sit on the ground and feel the sun on me, somehow existing just feels more real when im able to spend time in nature. perhaps just that connection to what is at the basis of creation. anywho my day today was just lovely, i woke up feeling really happy and proud of myself about my 2 weeks of sobriety as of today. i dont think ive gone 2 weeks without drinking in the past 6 years ish. maybe thats also part of the reason why existing feels more real right now. i started the day on that note and got ready and say outside with maia and skyler for a bit while maia worked out and skyler and  i drank our coffee. soon after i went out with kate and we visited the known by little loved to some place known as cocoon river. we had a sweet little picnic there which is my first picnic of the whole year! i love picnics and i am going to have so many this season. many sense memory moments today namely beet puffs, belmonts and the song lying has to stop by soft hair. after the picnic we went to taste of colombia and kikied as the girls do at t of c. we went to the known and loved by all location of bronte beach after and we were going to write the letters ive been meaning to write but instead we picked seaglass from the rocks and found so many colours. there was this light purple one that was kind of like a more vibrant amethyst and that one is my favourite. we put them in a water bottle to make jewelry out of later. i love hanging out with my friends and i am so lucky to have the supports i do while trying to be sober. i feel like i have so much love to fall back on. i am thankful that it didnt rain today because it made for a really beautiful start to the week. i was going to clean my room tonight but i am feeling too chill on the couch so hopefully ill do it soon. really need to do laundry. i want to smoke a little bit more weed before bed and i was gonna ask maia and skyler to come out with me when they get home but im not sure when they’ll be back so i think i’ll just go out on my own. hickey haver OUT be expectin more from me tomorrow :-p love u all