3:47Am

 Imagine this, Its 3:47Am and I am slowly giving up, slowly giving up hope. Today I sat with the music and my mind and found comfort in it all, comfort in feeling nothing. Found myself slowly accepting the emptiness. Who knows, I still feel obviously but I guess I have just run out of pain.  No more tears left to cry as people may say. I'm giving certain things in my life one last shot and after that well... after that it doesn't matter. I wanna focus on, now. Focus on this chance I've given people in my life, even if they dont know it.

Am I on my way to healing from something I've been emotionally stressing over for months, maybe..but its to soon to tell. But tonight I can actually breathe, as sad as I may be, I do not cry. I am truly just over it all. This last chance is the chance the universe has to tell me if the people in my life truly need to be present. So we will see.

Sometimes you have to be so tired of hurting, to finally get somewhere the pain doesnt control your mind anymore. 

If I'm not 100% at that point now, I'm on my way.