stupid

i don't get it.

i do everything i can to get liked around here and i get fucking nothing. i buy people things, give them my stuff, but eventually i always end up getting ignored.

i will always be an outsider. i will never fucking be liked no matter how much i try. i just want to talk to someone but i can't talk to anyone and im so tired im just so tired.

god im so lonely

who needs friends anyway im just disgusting vermin i can talk to my hallucinations instead