i <3 being queer

period :3 my comfort is literally watching coming out vids. idc if theyre cliche or whatever i wish it was like that for me. my mom is wayyy better now but i still remember being called a l*sbo (before she even knew i was queer). it was super uncool and she just kinda ignored it for a while and we still dont really talk about it since i dont date. being trans i'm wayyyyy less sure and comfortable about so i think i'll wait a while for that one since that also won't change much (i want to be seen as a boy so badly i'm going to explode). anyway :3 i <3 theo from chilling adventures of sabrina and he was probs my awakening ngl. i'm sure i can find my rambling about him somewhere lol. but i saw him first as "susie" and i was like yep proof i like girls/nb. and then he came out and the way he described it i was like what. WHAT. does everyone not want to be seen as a boy and have he/him used on them??? plus he talked about how he knew still looked like a girl and shit but he was a boy and idk especially rewatching the scenes related to his coming out now makes me feel better and more confident yknow.

i hate that i sound like a girl cause theo sounds sm like a boy and so do almost all of my trans guy friends but i don't. i'm working on it but like i said in my last post (i think) idk how to make my voice lower without ppl noticing. so maybe i'll just have to wait for that too :/

my one comfort is that i have to wear a dress to two weddings this summer but it literally looks like a boy wearing a dress XD like bruh i literally have a fucking mullet and a mustache with leg hair *insert skull emoji* i look so unlike a girl its fucking hilarious lmfao. i <3 my mullet fr fr :3 i literally am never going to have my hair long again omfgggg i hated it sm. short is ten times better no matter what my gender turns out to be.