depresion </3 LMFAO

i'm like v v sad. compliments i got today: you have a good (singing) voice, i love your hair, idk probs something else but i completely forget. ppl wanted to talk to me, ppl gathered near me, i brought ppl together. but i'm still so sad.

you know what i want? i want someone to say shit like "night night dipshit" to me again. i want a person i love more than anyone else in the world. there is no one. and ik i romanticized and fucked up my last relationship like that but i'm lonely. i miss him. i miss ppl. it's not the same. i'm usually okay. but i'm very detached rn unfortunately. i don't feel real i feel like a character in a book. ik i am real tho. anyway.

i didn't do the makeup today. i got too scared. maybe i'll do it tomorrow. i wanna do it at least once this year. if i go to bed earlyish tonight maybe i'll be able to wake up on time tomorrow and get it done. idk tho.

my head hurts. and my stomach kinda. i'm probs hungry. i had pancakes for dinner today. again. yippee. i love pancakes.

i'm too tired to type anymore even tho it's not that late. so gn. or as i would say, sleep adequately dumbass.