demotivated to keep going, pushing towards new passions

maybe i'm autistic but i have hyperfixated on the idea of making my own ron weasley sweater (you know the ones that molly makes for the boys with the initials on them yeah)

and i don't want to do theatre right now LOL

linnea is being prissy and saying they will cut a scene we just blocked from a preview performance because i'm out sick today and it seems like they're trying to make me feel guilty about it like.

sorry i'm sick and need to take care of myself so i can continue doing the show without losing my voice?! like am i being crazy like okay cut the scene then. i think they want to cut it because i wouldn't have as much time to get used to the running order if i'm still sick tomorrow but they keep pushing people to be unprepared for audiences so why do you suddenly care lol idk whatever

also some of my friends are trying to go to a twice concert this summer but are planning to only get tickets with "hopes and dreams" instead of actually committing and getting ready to snipe for those tickets. like we're not going then HAHA; and the fact they asked if dawn could come along honestly rubs me the wrong way maybe it's because i don't care about dawn rn but i also think it's because we're all trying to go because we're onces and like. dawn isn't lol

anyways! trying to choose a college now and finish hw lol bye