My Life

Lately nothing feels real I believe I am having an episode I have no idea what is going on 24/7 each day just feels like I am just existing until the next. I am not sure what I feel right now and the only peace I get is when I am in my partners arms, I feel lost at times and alone. Not alone in the "I am lonely" kind of way but in the "I feel an emptiness of emotion" kind of way. All I want to do is get fucked up and run away with my partner to explore new destinations, to get out of this damn town. I miss my friends, I miss going out but now I am lost again.