Sometimes It Just Takes Time

It can be hard to wait for things we truly desire. Losing weight/body fat is a big example of that. It's a task which can't be accomplished immediately and too often for people, it's easy to want instant gratification and be disappointed when we don't get it. That being said...

My husband and I have been together for going on 9 years. We've been through thick and ultimate thin together. However, in recent months we were slowly reaching a point where I thought we weren't going to survive the things we were going through anymore and we would finally crumble. It took many months of talking and reconnecting, repairing long-occurring damage. We were at a point of "brushing it under the rug" was no longer working and we were faced with either change direction or let our problems be heavier than our love. 

A relationship is give and take. Anyone who has ever been in one will learn that one way or another. You can't always give, but you can't always take either or things will fall apart. Well, we were ultimately in that position too. However, we were both giving... but not giving what the other actually needed. Our communication was lacking and we were far from what one would even consider friends. We were living in a relationship where we were tolerating each other and when we were home together, it was easier to avoid each other and live on-edge than it was to be around each other. 

I realized tonight while dancing in my kitchen to Naruto soundtracks in my headphones and staring at the man I am blessed to have come home to me each day that sometimes, no matter what it is you're desiring, you can have everything you want if you just give yourself enough time. We were on the brink of collapse, and today I stand in my kitchen cooking with my man, dancing to music and finding my inner child again that I am happier today than I think I have ever been in my entire life. My heart tank is so full because he's been willing to meet me on my level for the past few months while I take time to actually repair.

See, a lot of time people think "I've given you weeks, how are you not better yet? How have you been unable to change yet? To fix things yet?" Of course there are people out there who aren't putting in the effort to change, but then you have those who are so broken that it truly takes months to repair the damage. This man fought for me with subtle action and stayed patient through the months while he both filled my heart tank with love and I took time to heal myself. Now today, I'm playing games with him for hours and looking forward to doing not only what I want to do, but things he enjoys too. I'm dancing in my kitchen, something I have never done in the history of ever in my life. I'm meeting him in the middle now that I was given enough time to repair the damage I had felt. Today, we are the best we have ever been and each day we continue to grow stronger. I can actually say I feel blessed in my life again... It just took time. <3