L

As this L occupies my left hand, and I slowly feel my natural mind slipping away

I wonder what happened

As I inhale and exhale letting the smoke fade into the background of my room

I ask myself who have I become 

an academic scholar running on drugs

smoking everyday to cope with these problems that I can't let get in the way

but all I do is self reflect, there's never a time I'm not worrying about who I'm becoming

As I inhale again because I am getting stressed out 

this time I let the problems flow with it

fuck you and fuck them too