idk

so, i broke up with my partner about a week or so ago, and it was on good terms, because its due to me having to move literally across the country, and we've agreed long distance is bad for us, so we broke up and agreed we'd stay friends. but i think theyre lying to me. i dont think they even want to stay friends. and it hurts. we both agreed this was for the best. we both agreed that we'd stay friends. they promised me they wanted to be in my life, even if not romantically. so why are they alienating me so much.. i even told them if they thought we could work long distance then we'd see what happens and they agreed that we cant make it work, we've already tried, we're both just too busy to be long distance, so why are they treating me like this ? it was mutual. we agreed. they promised. i hate feeling like this. like im so undesirable as a friend, and my only worth is being someones plaything. people have always only cared about me if they were dating me, or thought they had a chance at dating me. why cant i just have a friend ?