ripping tearing

still so anxious!!! my god i hate feeling like this so fucking much. i took one of the meds babe gave me so hopefully something helps but i just feel like biting my fingers off... uggh. i genuinely want to die sometimes when it gets this bad this feels horrible. i hate stressijg out when im in one of the most comfortable positions i can be in right now. i have nothing to worry about and we have money... but ill always feel the weight of not being good enough being crushing