feeling horrible

i love that my whole family knows i have problems with eating (due to my history of ed and autism) yet my needs are constantly on the back burner. time and time again ive told them my safe foods, because they just LOVE to go to the store without me/without telling me, but do they ever buy said safe foods ? NOPE !! they instead fill the fridge, freezer and pantry with nothing but foods i CANT EAT and then i just. dont eat properly. most time for fucking days. which is so fun, and not triggering at all. having to live off of random snacks i have hidden in my room is so fun. why are they hidden ? oh BECAUSE MY FAMILY ALSO LOVES TO STEAL MY SAFE FOODS AND EAT THEM.

im the only one in this damn house who is mentally AND physically disabled and im the only one whos needs get severely ignored. i cant wait to move, only a few more days hopefully. i just want to be able to eat. (i mention being physically disabled because its incredibly hard for me to cook, and my safe foods are easy to cook, unlike the foods my family loves to buy, which i CANT cook)