#5

I'm actually afraid of blogging in my native language. I'm... not sure why. For some reason, the fear of rejection is stronger in this case than when I write in English.

Besides, it's easier to kinda just, hide among other English speaking users. Easier to blend in, even if you're kinda weird, you know?

I wouldn't be open about my weirdness if I blogged in my native language though... that'd make me stand out too much. At some point I did try to do it but... idk. And there are too few people openly talking about XYZ things, the things that are a bit too "weird" and stand out too much. I appreciate those people who actually talk about these things in my native language and maybe it'd be good if I also did that but I'm just kinda afraid.

I think there are more reasons why I'm afraid of blogging in my native language... it just feels anxiety-inducing and not too good right now, for reasons.