bpd is so ugh /neg

ikkk that most of my posts are just venting and ranting but like not to be emo (LOL) but things are kindaaa shitty rn. i'm sure they'll get better soon but bpd wise this is like a lot of work. the only thing keeping me stable rn is writing here. i'm not even exaggerating i love this place X3 sure there's a few freaks (/neg) but overall everyone is soooo nice. it's like ao3 but less weird ppl (/neg) interact with me (at least so far)!!

i started watching the last of us and i have got to say it's a good show and i'm fascinated by the concept (biologically i mean) which is why i'm watching it, but those kind of shows always make me soooo depressedddd. like just imagining life SUCKS. that's why i watch south park too. ik it's offensive but it's really funny (also as a person who belongs to some categories of the ppl they make fun of idrm although i can't speak for everyone ofc).

south park is like me normally and the last of us is like a really intense depressive episode (including watching scary game youtube playthroughs or horror arg explanations to feel something).

idk maybe i'll make another less venty post later :P