Long awaited (?) shitty life update

Current song playing: "Everybody wants to rule the world" By Tears For Fears

Hello again, I've come back..

I forgot i even have this, it's now 2023. I pretty much changed, like- my views and opinions on stuffs have change- but not for the better i think, i wish i was still the same wise person i once was. I'm actually in the process of re-educating myself because i have been influenced by my parents and the people who are around me at all times. 

I'd like to say that i'm not that sensitive anymore, or maybe i became numb at this point- I can't really tell.

I am now 18, still a loser, still smokes cig at times, and had gotten her tongue pierced, had gone to a concert, still likes the same boy; what's new...(i hate myself because of this lol)

ffs. uh, what else is there to tell.. I'm scared of the future, i don't really think i'll survive college well

And speaking of the same boy... (here we go again, fucks sake lmao) My drunkass decided to confess again to him on January 1st (after dozens or maybe even hundreds of failed attempts- ..sigh) mf told me he likes me the next day, we're still talking- still waiting for something i can't fathom what it is. We did make some progress. though very little, i hate it so much.

I've had better days, which is nice. horray. Cheers to more