i cut my hair X3

i got a hair cut. i am incredibly excited. i have been threatening to get a mullet for months. and it has finally happened. it is a mild mullet. but idc i am a fan.

my trans masc friend accidentally called me "her" today. i managed to get enough courage to talk to him about it and remind him of my pronouns and it went super well. he wasn't mad or anything. but i don't feel better. i don't think anyone sees me as a boy. idk what to do. my personality is too feminine. i just want to stop being myself. but i'm scared then ppl will get bored.

idk man idfk. i just want to be seen as a guy. idk how to make that happen. idk what to do. i'm just so fucking sad. god.

it especially hurt because that same friend had just called me a guy when describing me earlier so it made it worse when i got misgendered. ik he didn't mean it like at all and will probs never do it again. but it hurts knowing that even if he uses the right pronouns he doesn't see me as a guy.

but i did get to use the male bathroom today at my hair appointment!!! it was a single bathroom and idk if it was still used specifically for guys. and ik the lady didn't see me as male when she let me use that bathroom. BUT STILL. IT HAD A MEN'S SIGN. IT WAS A MEN'S BATHROOM OKAY.

i hope i feel better soon :/ ik i probs won't. but i hope i feel like a cis girl again. that would be kinda awesome.