FML !!TW!!

I am done I am completely done with trying to be the best person ever I am tired of being kind I am tired of just giving myself away. I try to help I always do but if people are taking advantage all of the damn time I want to be cold I wish I did not care so much. I wish I could shut off all emotions, is this what I get for helping others? Is this what I truly fucking deserve. Am I that terrible of a person that deserve so much bs from everyone. What did I do!! All I ever tried to do was be kind to be patient and when I finally set a boundary or when I finally speak about not being comfy with something But when I finally snap. I am the bad guy every single fucking time!!!! I Am DONE completely fucking done! I wish I could treat others the way they treat me but I  can not I am not like that, it hurts too much to do so. It starting to cause me physical pain. I am tired, scare, and worried all the damn time! I hate it!! Is this really what I deserve? I am slowly dying I am killing myself over this shit!!