Plans change.

I’ve been thinking a lot about my future , and I think I want to change my game plan. 

(I Don’t have anyone I trust enough to tell, and I need this in writing so I can remind myself)

I’m going to pack my things and move. I’m Most likely going to go job corp so they can help me get on my feet. I know I can’t bring ALL my things to job corp, so I’m going to keep my car/ belongings in a storage garage. And once I get more stable, I’ll find a place to live.

I want to make a life for myself elsewhere. Somewhere where I can truly be free, and independent.

I don’t ever want to come back. so if things end up being too hard, then imma just kms. I’ll slowly stop posting, texting, and calling everyone so they think Im just missing or just living my life somewhere. Then BOOM, no more glow.. gruesome Ik.. but I mean…It’s better than finding me faced down on my bed, unconscious at home. Plus I’m not telling anyone where I’m going, so it will be harder to find me.

I was thinking of ways I can off myself with out causing too much pain to the people in my life.. and the only option is to remove myself from their lives while I’m breathing, so it wouldn’t matter as much once I’m actually gone. 

But like I said.. this is most likely a plan b, if life doesn’t end up being as easy as I anticipated.

My only 2 real options rn..