thank GOD this place exists :(

UGHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

anyway. :3

i'm like going insane. i'm listening to all these ppl vent right. always reaching out. and i'm going literally insane. i WILL snap soon X3

i did some drawing today tho and i liked it a lot. i have smmmm hw to do T-T also i think my oldest friend might have khs (i've only known her for like less than a year but i have bpd soooo yeah she's my oldest friend). she's an online friend and she hasn't responded in a while when she usually responds at least within two days. i hope she's okay and she's either in the hospital, loony bin, or that her mom just took away her devices or her phone broke. idk tho.

if she's de4d i'm going to be like kinda upset. my oldest (consistent) friend before her left me ._.

sooooo yeah then my oldest friends would be like 5 months old if she's de4d :,3

oh and i'm not selfish i also care about her ofc. i am just going a little crazy thinking about her so i'm kinda trying to keep myself chill by focusing on me and my little stupid life.

my mom went on a rant about how all men are scum today and then made my sibling walk to school D:

yeahhh just one more reason to never ever come out to her as trans -_-

AH I LOVE MUSIC SM!!!!! SOME ARTISTS ARE SOOO UNDERRATED!!!!

truth or dare by emily osment is so goodddd

also how do you love someone by ashley tisdale!!! i'm not the kind of person who really cares about fitting into one "aesthetic" or subculture or whatever but i am surprised that not a lot of scene ppl mention her music. it makes me wonder if she's even scene type music at all. either way idc it's good!!!! kinda reminds me of a silent scream by anna blue but less cliche XD

anywayyyyy gonna go watch something now instead of doing my hw :,3