Weekend thoughts

Today was a lazy day. It was time spent well. I feel so much healthier now. Life seems so much easier now. Vacations and escapades are needed to survive the hustle and bustle. But one must maintain boundaries and set a standard of discipline for their own well-being. 

Coming here every day to vomit my thoughts has really been helpful. It is very subtle but there is a clear difference. By articulating my thoughts and feelings I achieve a sense of control over them. 

I like solitude. There is a romance in it. The enchanting secret life. A space, a memory, that belongs only to me. It is something very precious to me. With the advent of valentine's on the horizon, I have begun to feel a fresh appetite for solitude.

I have also noticed the pleasure I feel in being kind to people. Knowing that I have been considerate of someone else's well-being boosts my self-esteem. A form of egoistic altruism. It simply feels good to be adding to the goodness around.

I still have a heavy academic burden on me. And the pressure of being independent. To be responsible. To face the consequences. It is scary. But I trust myself to handle it :)