OMG NEW TWILIGHT BOOKS???

i'm so excited wtfffff. they probs won't come out for a while but there's supposed to be two more!!! istg if it's from jacob's or renesmee's point of view while they're in a relationship i'm going to kms smh.

i'm so glad i have this space. i haven't had a private place i'm able to post in in foreverrrr. i kinda want to make a reddit post talking about it but someone ik has my reddit sooooo no.

god today sucked balls. even tho there's TWO new twilight books supposed to come out, plus i actually did shit for once (i even exercised??? and socialized with strangers irl???), and ptv released a whole new fucking album with two amazing songs in it, and i found an awesome twilight themed layout with a moon cursor but it still sucked. i think i need to take my afternoon antidepressants :/

anyway other shit is pretty sick tho like i said. not much to complain about except stress, a personality disorder, fucking things up with my mom, and uhhhhhh other stuff i'm probs forgetting :,3

it fr could be worse tho at least i can make my suffering into a cool aesthetic!!!1!1!!

i wish i had money to shop my problems away. also i can't drive *yet*. only with an adult with a license in the car. so i can't even go to the thrift store to spend my five bucks :,(

anyway my house is getting so depressing again i can't take it even tho i feel bad. i can't wait to go to school on monday and hug my friends who don't know how horrible i am.

nightmare by palaye royale is soothing my soul. i want to cut my heart out. i'm so tired and selfish ew.

ik this kinda goes against the rules but i'm not sewerslidal i promise. i just keep having this fantasy/thought of sl1tting my throat and bleeding out and shit. or not even bleeding out just bleeding from the c*t (idk how they cens0r or filter things on here don't judge). i would never do it but it's an intrusive thought i've been having for a while and the last time i had an intrusive thought this bad i couldn't resist it and i took a handful of antidepressants.

ughhhh it's just so :((

anyway i think i'm done writing here for today :P and i'm not going to be coloring the text this time because idk i just don't really like it a lot.

oh and i'm petitioning for a mullet so we'll see >:)