Him<3

I hate this feeling inside my chest, my stomach and my head. He makes everything spin. I never quit, it aches when I see him with another. I hate that I am feeling this way. I hate that I have feelings for him. Him Him Him he is the only one in my head. Make it stop, why him? It feels like I am gonna get hurt, I keep falling and falling but he  only catches me with one finger. He gives me hope that there is a chance but then takes it away without a simple glance. He makes me feel like I am alive and I despise. I want him but then again I do not, he makes me fly but then lets me drop. I have fallen so hard before but not like this, my knees are still scraped my heart still aches. I want him but I know I'll make a mistake. I am so scared to be the only one falling, I want his arms around me. I like the way his lips feel against mine they are not sour like a lime. I want him to be mine, I want to be his. He is too focused on himself I could never get in the way of his growth. When i hear his name my head does a full one eighty. I hate being this way, it does not feel pretty.