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so i've been really scared to admit this but i really need to get my thoughts down,, i never really learned times or division,, i don't know why, but i've just struggled since then,, i haven't told anyone until today because i'm so ashamed,, my brother would probably bully me and call me 'stupid' and never let me live it down,, my dad would probably blame it on my phone and yell at me because he'd think i just wasn't paying attention,, i literally cried over it in class today because i feel so idiotic and how i've just given up on learning math in the past few years + family issues,, not doing well rn,, i mean i'm literally a first year in high school and i still don't know basic stuff,, sigh,,