lifeeee

ugh last post was such a total lie. they were bad and very immature. classic me telling myself someone is great before really getting to know them. bottom line not compatible at all. 

anyways, i’ll spill and say i am talking to a new guy, have been for a little over a month rn, and yoo it’s going like really nice for some reason?? kinda refreshing tbh 

we watched juno today and it made me really happy not just cause i liked the movie but because he’s so cute and sweet and everything i’m looking for. ik it’s not rlly descriptive but we were just cute and comfortable together and it made me happy :)

but in all honesty, it is scary thinking what the future has in store for people and specially us. there’s so much that could happen, so many places we could go. it’s really exciting but also really scary at the same time yk? 

also my anxiety, bpd, just general overthinking has gotten a little extreme lately. id really like to calm down the voices in my head and i remembered that journaling and writing down my feelings helps a lot. i mean it makes sense because i can physically write down how i feel and it makes the thoughts more tangle to pick apart. especially pick apart and forget about the dumb ones. i like how his mentally is much more calm and go with the flow like. i would like to learn more about how he thinks and maybe adapt. 

schools okay, it’s really stressful but i am forgetting about it. 

grace is still doing great besides a couple mental things which i am trying to help her with. she deserves the world and i want nothing but happiness for her. 

anyways if i calm my mind i’ll literally have the most perfect life ever. i got thisss