Depressing Rant :p

i used to write alot just for my own enjoyment but im in this headspace where i dont like anything anymore, music beacame meh but that was like my whole thing, the people i watch started making alot more content and i simply cant care, everything is meh, i want to write for fun again but my life is bland

i have no friend not irl not online, im in bed all day unless im sitting outside at night cause i sleep all day, im supposed to be in school but i have crippling anxiety and depression, and theres not one thing about me that makes up for the shitty person i am so im gonna be lonely for awhile, i know i probably need therapy... again, but theres alot a shit i cant say right now,

sometimes i just feel stuck, everydays the same and theres almost nothing i can do about it, and i dont have the courage to the thing that probably will help me,