[VENT] Friendships.

I feel like friendships don't end up well for me if it's online.. I always get mixed signals of ppl wanting to talk to me but then actually take no interest in talking to me... is it bad for wanting to make a deep friendship with someone? Is it selfish? I'm too dependent on my gf and I feel like having a friend that I will get to talk to well help me become not so dependent on her (if that makes sense) I don't expect to talk 24/7 but I do want a cool close friendship and be like "hey bro look at this funny shit I found on insta about cats, thought you would like it" or smth. I put sm effort in my friendships and I feel like I don't get that in return... I'm lonely a lot of the time and I feel bad for not giving my gf a break and it just emphasizes how alone I actually am...